love, put downs, & throw downs.

by c. thomas
(new york, new york)

when I met him for some reason I knew he would be mine. at the time we met we were both in relationships we didnt want. well mine ended before hand because my ex was a constant cheater. anyway*

we start seeing each other I never kept anything from him I let him know who I was and how I was. I told him no ones perfect and neither am I. from then on we hit it off. It was me & him against the world. the woman he left took it as far as spreading rumors that I had aids just
to get him to come back to her. It went on for about 1 yr.

I got pregnant they started saying it was my first sons father baby. These people really ruined a lot of my friendships & even people trusting me because they thought I wanted their man. Me & this girl was not friends at all I knew her yes but she had slept with a couple of my boyfriends. In which I did not know until they told me. Me being with him was no pay back.
I just thought he was a cutie.

When we met I did not know he was with her. well after she finally backed off cause she had tried it all nothing was working. we had begun our family our baby boy was born. We were happy progressing livin life working had. there were times we argued but its a relationship. once my son turned 7mons it got ugly. an incident occured where he had a female friend I had no problem with him having friends I am not jealous like that.

wel this friend starts spreading stories & telling people that she think I dont know. I asked him to address the issue because thats his friend he said no you do it. now I go do it, this man, my man runs me down in his car & calls me everything but my name. after that yrs on in we fight.

Our not agreeing on things turns into fist fights, he calls me names, like whore, nasty, stupid. etc. now in 2012 we have been together 7yrs. the abuse is worst we recently had an conversation about a waterbill and I guess because I told him I didnt want to talk about it ill find out & left the room. He came to where I was and asked me for something I did not hear him and I said what he screams on me & then jumps right on me. We fight hes telling me how I am a piece of shit.

I love him so much, but if I say something he doesnt like he beats me, he said this is the only relationship he went through this. honestly, I can see if I was always attacking him but. thats not the case. I'm puzzled on how someone who said they love me, hate me so much. I'm afraid, with no one to turn to.

Dear C.T.,

You're not alone sweetie, God you are not alone! I am so sorry you are dealing with all of this and feel the way you do. I am here for you... I am sending you a private message, if you would like my help, you have it privately and confidentially.